I miss you more and more, 
All I need is your body,
Your lips call my name,
I can't hear you.

I miss you more and more, 
All I want is your body,
My heart took the blame,
So where are you.

Oh girl,
There's too much to tell,
lately you've been acting cold,
Pictures of you and me ,
remains the same after all.
Time seems to be slowly
ticking ticking ticking,
while my heart cant stop over,
bleeding bleeding bleeding.

I'm out of my breath,
This love of yours kills me with a pain in my chest,
I miss it when we would just stare and hear the silence in the air ,
I dont't recall your
body body body,
I know your new man must be
lucky lucky lucky.

I'm talking bout ur eyes,
I'm talking bout ur body,
I'm talking bout ur lips, 
I'm talking bout ur beauty that drives me up the wall,
I'm talking bout ur soul,
I'm talking bout everything from head to toe of yours.

I miss you more and more, 
All I need is your body,
Your lips call my name,
I can't hear you.

I miss you more and more, 
All I want is your body,
My heart took the blame,
So where are you.

We were beautiful,
so we flew,
like diamonds in the sky.
But you left me crashing down feeling heavy in your lies.
Bathing in this liquor of pain I found nothing but despair,
Give you everything you need ,
Baby this I promise and I swear.

For you i'll be a villian or a killer,
Let haters judge me like Mayweather,
My friends here are calling me a sucker,
In your eyes i'm nothing but another loser.

I'm talking bout ur eyes,
I'm talking bout ur body,
I'm talking bout ur lips, 
I'm talking bout ur beauty that drives me up the wall,
I'm talking bout ur soul,
I'm talking bout everything from head to toe of yours.

I miss you more and more, 
All I need is your body,
Your lips call my name,
I can't hear you.

I miss you more and more, 
All I want is your body,
My heart took the blame,
So where are you.

The god summoned your presence , leaving us in your absence. I could still remembered the day when my brother rang me, telling me about the news. Shocked and devastated, I start browsing through my twitter to wait for news the surface. In those agonizing minutes, rumors became reality. And reality hits you hard.

I liked you for those constant lame jokes that blurted out from your mouth, saying that you wished I was your son in law, bragging you can play the guitar better than me, so many more jokes which has been blurted out from you through the years of high school.

I was sitting next to a friend. A friend which was easily the top 5 student in the entire school. Among all the jokes that you told the class, I knew it wasn't a joke when you said I had something special that my friend doesn't have. Then, I wasn't quite sure what you were talking about. Throughout the years, after graduating from university, I think I understand what you meant back then.

You served the school for almost 30 years. A role model to every colleague, students and me. I had the opportunity to visit you when I was in Malaysia, but the laziness in me said otherwise. Maybe your death did not affect the other students much, but it still lingers in me.

Cherish those that are still in your presence. Talk to those when given the opportunity. Appreciate those that made your day. Love those that love you the most.

Rest In Peace, Mr Perumal. Not visiting high school during your presence will be one of my biggest regrets.

Confused 

I break down, I feel useless, I might be losing the spark, I just want to dig a hole and not see anyone for the day, I'm constantly drown by thoughts, weird thoughts.

I'm still here, masking myself up with a smile. Dear god, I'm only human.

For me remembering my dreams are rare. I usually wake up without remembering any of them. 

Things got a little peculiar the last week, when I can actually remember most of them. Being blown awake by dreams at 3-4 in the middle of the night sucks, It's impossible for me to drift back to sleep. My thoughts haunt me and I find myself starring at my room's ceiling until the morning sun creeps through my window.

I thought I was way over you like a thousand years ago, but you somehow you still come invading my sleep. 

10 years ago, my hero would be some lame guy with a cape. 

Today, if being asked who my hero would be, without hesitation, it would be my parents. Not all heroes wear capes 

Sometimes, I'm just to shy to express my feelings towards my parents. Maybe I'm just not good with words 

I'm just a piece of pawn on a chess set in your life. It's either I'm sacrificed or used, never protected. After my service, I'm thrown away, forgotten. 

Before I even left for Australia, I've always been by your side. When the news came to me that you've failed 3 of your subjects. Honestly, you weren't the one who felt disastrous. I had the same share of feeling as well. I felt I had to bear some responsibility. As I did not push you to study as hard as you can. From that moment onwards, I've been monitoring your hours spent on Dota. 

There was this period of time when we were working in popular together. If we have common shifts, I would pick you up from your house and we would then go to work together. I thought that you would be tired even before starting work if you had to walk some distance. There was this day, where our shift ended. It was 10 pm. It was that moment that you realized that you left your keys with your girlfriend. And your girlfriend is all the way at mid valley. I didn't want to leave you stranded somewhere, trying to catch a taxi or bus at this time of the hour. I offered to give you a lift to mid valley. I knew that I would reach home way later than usual. And I was having a morning shift the very next day. However, I told myself, I would gladly help a friend like you. 

My dear friend, do you know that, every trip to sunway, 1U, ss15 and all those places we've been with the gang together. I could have just drive to those places alone without giving you a lift ? 

Do you know how much it would cost you to hire a taxi to take you to those places ? And it was also my responsibility to fetch you back to your hostel ? It didn't happen once or twice. This went on for three years. I'm not talking about how much you should pay me back. It was never about the money. I just needed one thing from you. Appreciation. And my young friend, I was happy to have spent the time together with you. I thought you would do the exact same thing for me. 

Before flying back home from Australia, you needed me to fetch you to Bangsar. You brought another friend with you. I didn't mind at all. You wanted me to detour to Amcorp Mall to repair your cellphone. I did what you told me to. And then the next day, another trip to GlenEagles KL. At the end of the day, I realized, there wasn't any appreciation given. 

I asked for a favour. Just to buy me breakfast, you hesitated, you were reluctant. I provided with accommodation to stay for 2 weeks to stay in Australia. And all I wanted was a skype session to see how things are going with you. And your demanding girlfriend bluntly told me not to disturb you as she wants to spend the whole night skyping you. And an hour after being told off, that bitch has the cheek to come asking for my assistance. I was always by your side, but when I needed a little help. You were the first to look away. 

I treated you like a true friend. But looks like I was a driver on your eyes. 

People who will only remember you only when they seek help. What are they called ? Friends ?

Without you here god knows I'll be so damn lonely,

Baby you know I'll always love you one and only, 

da rat dat dat dat dat dat dat Baby don't worry, 

It's only 2 years and I'll be back in a hurry. 

How am i supposed to feel, when I'm leaving my nest in less than 2 weeks ?

Sydney

Represented Monash for this warman competition. Hell Yeah, it was Sydney.

I had sleepless nights before my team and I had to fly off to Sydney. It was all because we had to hand carry our robots. And of course, there're aluminium plates attached to the robot. Passing the customs will be a headache. We had a really rough time when we reached the airport. Despite us presenting the letters from Monash Malaysia and also Engineers Australia. It took us at least 2 hours to persuade the authorities for us to hand carry our robots. 

This was us before leaving Malaysia. 

SWAR group 10 :D 

Our flight was 11.40pm. It was a safe flight. A pleasant one either. The air ticket (air-asia) was rather cheap, RM 1327. 50 % will be sponsored by the University and the Engineers Australia. 

Day 1 

Woolbrokers ! Our hostel for 10 days ! It's really a convenient place to stay. It located in a suburb, but only 10 minutes away from the city centre. It was a cheap place to stay. 4 days were paid off by the Engineers Australia. We paid for the rest of our stay. It was 190 dollars per person. When we received the receipt of payment. We were all shocked. That person in charged actually charged each of us a child rate. Do we look that young ? 

ANDDD Darling Habour !!! The view was amazing ! 3 minutes walk away from our hostel . 

My hair is in a mess :/ 

The night view was even better. 

It was 2 days before the competition. Honestly, we wanted to just tour the whole city all day long and dump our projects aside. The place was just amazing. 

Day 2 

1 day before the competition, and 9 monkeys, still touring around Sydney. This time, to satisfy my cravings. I was looking for Shashimi to eat. And so we decided to head off to the Sydney Fish Market. 

It was 50 Aussie per kilo :3 I knew that the Shashimi was good. But damn, it was the best shashimi that I've had in my entire life. I'm not exaggerating. It was the bomb (Y)

In Malaysia, we have houseflies zooming around food and stuff like that. When I was in Sydney, houseflies were replaced with seagulls -.- they literally FIGHT for your food. When I was unpacking my food, these creatures will start to eye for an opportunity. 

Of course we didn't spend the whole day there. We had to rush back to the hostel, and back with our work ! 

Day 3 , 4 and 5 

It was practice day and followed by the finals. The day for all the competitors to try out their robots. The event was held in the Australia Technology Park. I have no idea where is this. 

The whole idea of this robot building competition was to build a robot (lol duh ) to carry a certain weight of payload (rice) , over a desired height. It was (20 cm up to 120 cm ). So if you carry a heavier weight, and a higher height, obviously your team will obtain higher marks.

 Robot A needs to carry the load from the starting zone all the way to the transferring zone (usually the toughest part). The load is then passed on to robot B, where robot will only have to travel a straight line, to the end zone.  

Our workplace. In my opinion, the set up was just perfect for teams to learn from each other. I was jumping from table to table just to get a glimpse of the other robots. The Australians were really friendly and supportive. They'll show you everything there is on their robots. They wasn't any ' kiasu-ness ' in them. This is how people learn :) By sharing. 

P.s : Pictures below might bore some people. Lots of tech stuff 

University of...... I'm not sure 

University of Auckland 

University of James Cook 

University of Deakin 

University of Melbourne 

Our group photo :3 Monash Sunway 

My teammate and I, setting up our robots before the final run. 

A close up of our robot. This was before we sprayed paint it solid black. It was at a 90% completion stage. 

YES A VIDEO ! OUR RUN. Nerve wrecking as fcuk. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ym8J9vVjdtM&feature=youtu.be

( Couldn't upload the video right on the blog. It exceeded the 100MB capacity. )

It was a great sense of accomplishment after our run was successful. Months of hard work from my team had finally paid off. 

Results : 4th placing :) 1.3 marks away from the 3rd place and also 1000 Aussie dollar >.< But it was all about the experience anyways. 

The results table. The University of Newcastle was beyond reach. Their robots were off the charts. Even the second place (RMIT) couldn't compete with them. University of Auckland's robots were amazing. They landed up on the 3rd placing. And there's us, on the 4th :) 

4th placing was good enough. Our advisor back in Malaysia said she couldn't sleep after hearing that we were 4th. It was the first time in 27 years that Monash Malaysia landed in the top 5 and also beating Monash Clayton for the first time in idk how may years. Yup, 9 monkeys. Breaking records. 

We managed to meet up with the Monash Clayton team. It was like a privilege to us :p

Photo spam again :3 

Boys from Monash Clayton and Malaysia 

Advisor from Clayton lifting both of my members with one hand each. He lifts A LOT. 

Was pretty hyped up after the dinner. I actually lifted up the advisor from Clayton. 

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A photo with all the boys :3 

Everything was great. The food, the company, the friendly Australians. However, something was missing. Maybe more like someone. My best friend. We were supposed in a same semester, however, unfortunate reasons tend to happen. He was half a year behind. It would be prefect if he was in our team. 

Day 6,7,8 and 9 and 10 

The rest of the days were spent touring around the whole place. I think we walked an average of 10km per day. Enjoy the photos == damn lazy to add caption. 

People who deserves a lot of credit for what they did :) Couldn't have done it without the both of you. 

When we came back, lecturers were buzzing about our news. We were featured on the Monash TV screens 

I lol'ed so hard after seeing this. 

:D 

Goofing around :p 

An 11/10 trip. Unforgettable. So, I didn't have any regrets enrolling myself into Engineering :)