22nd June 2013

It was Sungha's concert on that day. I was pretty excited, then, there were news saying there was going to be a ' blackout' somewhere in KL. Guess what, it was next to my concert event. The concert was held in Dewan Bandaraya Kuala Lumpur, so I was pretty nervous getting to the concert venue due to the high traffic and the police.

I brought my guitar. I have 2 guitars. I had the old one signed in 2011, and the new guitar is still waiting for that signature of his ! There were police everywhere. I was stopped and I told them I had a concert to attend  to. It was very convincing since I had my guitar with me. Surprisingly, those policemen were really friendly :)

I love coming to these concerts alone. I DON'T KNOW WHY ! heh ! So as expected, merchandise were sold before the opening of the auditorium. I've bought 3 albums, 8 guitar picks ( still waiting to be given away to some friends ) and 2 t-shirts. My money got ripped off -.- It came up to a total of 280 bucks. ffffff . Thank god dad gave me enough cash to spend.

Finally, the auditorium doors were opened. I took Sungha awhile to step up. He's really a quiet person, not much of humour in him. The songs that he played were mostly composed songs. These are the songs that he played:

1. Felicity ( composed)
2. Sorry  ( composed)
3. Friends ( composed)
4. Payphone - maroon 5
5. Locked out of heaven - Bruno Mars
6. I remember you ( composed)
7. On a brisk day ( composed)
8. Nostalgia (composed)
9. All of me ( composed)
10. Cannon Rock

So when the MC announced the last song that Sungha was about to play, I made sure I had everything with me. Because of past experience I knew that the autograph sessions were gonna be a long wait. Just as he played the last note, I rushed out and was the 4th to arrive. Heh ! A minute later, the queue actually reached the toilets. Yup, It was that bad. I had a minor priority because of purchases ( CDs and t-shirts) that were bought earlier. Lucky me !

So i have his big signature on my new guitar now. Pretty proud about it ! It gives me a stronger push for me to play :)

Songs come and go, but this song sticks. 

I can't afford to go out everyday and come back home around 12am. I have rules to follow, and of course different families have different set of rules. So, don't go saying that I'm being anti-social and teasing me about not being fun after I've moved to college. You people can afford going out everyday without your parents knowing, that ain't my problem. You people can drive up to genting without your parents knowing, that ain't my problem too. Aren't you people well bonded with your families ? Don't you people need to spend some time with your families 

I love spending time with my cars on the racing track. It's an old toy, played by people 10 years back then. Yup, I love it. Why are you people making fun of my interest ? So just imagine a group of people laughing at your interest. The worst of all, they insult you in front of everyone when you can't make it to a party. 

On the other hand, friends that were there for me. Even if I were to miss a gathering or an outing. They'll give me call and tell me it's ok, and they'll tell me if there's another gathering or something. Can you see the difference? Friends that respect you for who you are and also really good at reading my feelings. 

Yes. I'm a bit sensitive with these sorta stuff. It was about a year ago when I told my friends while we were having dinner that I wouldn't be joining them for their next road trip to another friend's house. Yup, got scolded in public. Yeah, sounds ridiculous right ? Boycotted me for almost 3 months. What's wrong with me not going ? 

If friends can't respect your decision, just tell them to shut up :) 

what do u want from me ?

Brother constantly on smartphone and headphones. Not even a word from parents. When I'm on the headphones just once. Honestly, just once. Parents, lecturing, saying that it's too much. Dafuq you ppl want from me ?

Sorry

Just not having enough courage to say that I'm tired of all this. I know I'll have to do this sooner or later. I'm sorry

Holidays

Holidays would be

1. Running man
2. Tamiya
3. Guitar
4. Gatherings

gaaaaaaaa. it needs to be more interesting...

A change ?

My troops were ready for battle. I was too. Scouting for a village with abundant amount of resources to attack. It took me merely seconds to scout for one. A village with a huge amount of gold. The next thing I know, my archers were firing arrows towards the poor defense of the village. Giants that were hired were pounding against the weak walls, penetrating their defense. In just 2 minutes, the village was gone and the gold worth 100,000 was mine. I won. Smiling, feeling a little proud. Thinking of a strategy and plotting my next move. At the same time, still deciding whether to further improve my cannon or my archer tower.

Just then, I heard a distant cry. I was certain it was a cry of a baby. I looked around and I wasn't wrong. A 3 year old baby boy was whining. His parents were having a mini tug of war with him, snatching away a piece of slim and elegant looking metal. I realized, I was in a restaurant still waiting for our food to arrive. Still observing the family fighting for the iPad. It looked like the baby boy wanted to have his food and also have fun of that device of his as well. Dad was busy reading his National Geographic magazine. Mum was looking around. My younger brother was engrossed in his game. And this is me, feeling a little disgusted and disappointed.

Hitting the standby button on my phone. I started observing tables around me. Communication was replaced with electronic devices. Children busy swiping the screens and hitting buttons with such determination. Thinking back, I was like them too. Busy plotting my next move, neglecting my surroundings, and the people around me.

The feeling was worse than making silly mistakes in exams. Where's communication? Where's the laughter within families? Where's fun ?

'Smartphones were engineered to bring those far away much closer, while at the same time it also makes those near us more distant', according to Shane Hipps. In engineering, we were taught that sustainable development is an important key to a well balanced future. No one would have predicted smartphones would have such impact on the society.

After that incident, I've been trying to stop bringing my phone when I'm out for dinner. I wouldn't want to neglect what's around me anymore.

That's what inspired me to pursue my dreams in engineering. If a small device like this can change the world, no doubt there will be others that can change it as well. Machines were meant to reduce human effort, not causing humans to lose its ability to communicate.

Perhaps another change is needed. For the society and the environment.